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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Posted by Posted by illusion at 5:36 PM
Categories: Labels: sounds of my fingers against the keys
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i feel like love and hate are in the same part of a person's brain

*krishna

i think she's right. both are passionate emotions. both are targeted at a specific person. when you're in love and you see that person, something stirs. when you see someone you dislike. fine. hate (such a strong word!), something stirs.

sure.

one could argue: what about nervousness? and contentment? and joy? and sadness? those also do the same, no?

sure they do.

but i find, love and hate (sorrow, yes, but i mean deep sadness, for another being, not depression. got it? depression is mental as they say your mind doesn't get enough of something, so they give you a pill to supplement it. nah. figure it out and fix it. anyway. i digress.) to be deep deep rooted. powerful emotions.

is it about control?

☆

i came home last night after a long ass fucking day and felt like complete shit. i was like damn, i woke up feeling terrible and am coming home feeling terrible? damn. then i saw this on the table:

thank you casm :D totally made my night better. mini reese's peanut butter cups are like fucking crack. shit. i was elated when i saw them. watched role models til megavideo said 'halt! its been 72 minutes! you cannot pass!' . tried to fold laundry but just fell asleep. it was lovely.

apparently, i have a shit list. i figured it out the other day. see, well, you can't see, but something is already stirring inside. this is why i've decided to be laid back all the time; my anger is not fun. but yes, i let a lot of things slide that get me upset, but this is past the limit. it's all a test :) a test in controlling emotions. in seeing things from all ways when others cannot. planning. choosing the right moment....at the right time. exciting to realize what is going to ensue if i have the guts to do it.

balls.

i have to get my day started. but first, playlist time, bitches.

i liked how the light made things look

Posted by Posted by illusion at 1:26 PM
Categories: Labels: arctic monkeys - from the ritz to the rubble
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Sunday, March 7, 2010

Posted by Posted by illusion at 1:51 PM
Categories: Labels: rebelution - courage to grow
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Posted by Posted by illusion at 6:19 AM
Categories: Labels: cut copy - saturdays
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Saturday, March 6, 2010

soul eater is not a cartoon for children just looking for attention grabbing action. it requires thinking. i'd like to see what a kid would say after watching something like this.

kishin: very evil dude. became this way by eating human souls.

shinigami::lord death: gangsta.

during their epic battle, they have a profound discussion of imagination happiness and madness.

(best watched between the hours of 1 am and 5am)bc your mind is free to think in the silence of the night. the world is still. (i've been thinking about you lately)makes you think of connections the anime is nice on connections for example the technicians and their weapons.

episode...50? 51? maka goes deep into soul's conscious to rescue him from evil and encounters the demon that haunts soul's mind.

connections bw people are real. well, you know when they are real. its cool.

i am running late (thats been my thang lately) for picking up my bro from work. then supermarket to get ingredients for onion and vegetable...dip!...for my dad and gf's bday thing which i have to attend later today

-_-;;

yea. there is always a catch

best line in the episode

Posted by Posted by illusion at 5:46 PM
Categories: Labels: common - i want you
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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

from the start, i had no idea how the two giant triangles were going to fit.

awww, whaaaaaat?

*think stewie from the multi-verse episode in the parallel universe of dog-human role reversal and brian just called stewie 'his human, hotchkiss'

i must have redone this one numerous times. it got me. for real. and then. one turn of the triangle lead to this.

ah, yes. the taste of sweet, sweet succexy-ness.

who's the boss now, huh tangram guzzle bird?!

BOO-YAH!

Posted by Posted by illusion at 7:58 PM
Categories: Labels: soft cell - tainted love
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Monday, March 1, 2010

is it awareness?

i think that may be the word. being aware of your surroundings, and focused at the same time. this takes practice.

i miss practice.

see yourself from an external point of view. take one of those video cameras that can swoop up down everywhere around and see yourself in your head at every angle so you can feel completely grounded within yourself and where you are in accordance with where everything else is.

i was in the doctor's office today. you know how they do. you finally get to go in the doctor's office, but then are waiting for another twenty minutes or so until the doctor actually shows. as i was waiting. i overheard her talking (i recognized her voice from the last time i saw her). she was on the phone with a lady, giving her her pregnancy due date.

august 21.

(dimitri's birthday ♥)

^____^!

it made me smile as i was sitting there.

on saturday evening, the trombonist performed with one of his many salsa bands. he rocked. casm and i really enjoied their performance :) and to top it off, there was food..and it was free! :D (pictures are on le fcbk::once i finished cropping a few ^_^;;) there was such a fun vibe about the room. most likely from everyone dancing and good music.

dancing + good music = fun vibes

we are peculiar people, you and i.

Posted by Posted by illusion at 7:43 PM
Categories: Labels: mute math - peculiar people
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