timing.
(i felt like writing this time)
timing is everything. not timing as in...3:45 in the pm. or 7:21 in the am. timing as in the flow of things. timing as a concept? i saw inception the other night. this is probably what has brought up the writing. i mean, ive been wanting to write. and things start in my mind. but im never by a computer to start writing. sure, i can do it pen and paper, but im usually not by those either. so i end up forgetting most of what i want to write.
sometimes just keeping your mouth shut for a little bit longer, waiting for the right time to say something act on something react to something is better than acting on impulse. though impulse, is a beautiful thing. this i will not deny. impulses allow you to see what the person really wants to do. feels they need to do. before logical thinking sets in.
timing.
as in the flow of events. things reacting to each other. happens so fast. or so slow. life continues...and the world keeps spinning. the universe reacts to reactions happening within itself. we live accordingly to what we want, right? sorta? yea, i know.
im tired of trying to make everybody happy. you can't please everybody.
people are not going to be happy if they do not want to.
there are things more important in this world than having a job, money, social stability..why are some people set on making that the best it can be? while some of us care more for the feeling side of things? the former i believe is in a better position. who will keep the emotions alive? some people have to. perhaps i am just making excuses...
lately i have not been in the wanting of making decisions of any sort. but why is everything being left up to me? i dont want this. i dont want to be in charge of anything. but i feel like i have to be.
you have to stand your ground. be selfish at times. but anna, even if its at the expense of a loved one? that you've held so close and dear to you? how can you allow this downfall?
stand your ground or else you will lose it
friends are so important. this is not understood enough. this and the golden rule. and friends have to know how important they are. not to everyone, but to a certain few. and they have to know their role. when to step in. when to let slide. true friends are comrades. they will go against you if they must to save you. thats how you know. i have come across a few (not many since these are not abundant things) real good groups of friends. observing them gives good feelings. makes you think. makes you crave. im happy for those people. sometimes you know you will never be a part of them, though taken in. but to watch the closeness is an honor. at least, thats how i feel it to be.
we are just beings. individual beings. to each their own. but a mentality such as this...will it lead to a lonely life?
by the way...
note:....and if anyone can find these undies for meh, you are a true friend. haha just kidding. but if you can direct me to a store, then i will love you long time ;p i absolutely MUST have these!!!
♥!
